styrofoam... EVERYWHERE

well happy birthday to me... early got new washer, dryer and a small deep freeze today.they'll be paid off in the next three years at the longest... sooner hopefully.  My middle boy, T... God love him... (cause right now he is busy making a mess) is making snow with the styrofoam...ugg... I HATE styrofoam... and it is all over the house (that while it may not have been perfectly and completely clean was a LOT cleaner before the appliances got here than it is now...) They are off Monday for MLK day... so that means I'll be stuck here with them for hours and hours the next couple of days....  Kenn is trying to quit smoking again... I really hope he is able to this time around.

So now that I have a deep freeze I am going to start trying to put together  meals and freeze them so I can cook them later when there is a lot going on and I don't have time to cook...if anyone out there is actually reading this and has suggestions please leave a comment...  I know I will for sure be doing lasagnas, and probably freezing some chili next time I make some.  casseroles... (like king ranch chicken) would work as well...plus I am planning on starting a garden so I'll probably be freezing veggies like peppers (bell and jalapeno), making homemade spaghetti sauce and freezing (or possibly canning) it.

I have all these ideas and wants in my head that I want to do I just need to start making a plan to get them done!  :)  Sewing machine so I can make my own clothes... got so many design ideas in my head of what I want to make...
we want to get another Total gym so we can exercise.  (we had one back in Beaumont... but it like so much else got left behind)
I want to have a veggie garden so I need to start getting seeds and getting them started, get some timbers and some dirt and get the ground ready for the plants once warmer weather is here to stay.
in addition to the house repairs and the 2nd vehicle ect...

been a messed up week

in my never ending house cleaning endeavor I decided to clean behind things this week.  I moved out the washer and dryer to clean behind them, and I pulled out the desk in the office to clean behind it.  the first disaster struck Wednesday when I was doing this cleaning.  When I pulled the desk out the computer (the one that housed ALL the business stuff fell over (and died!!!) I am all panicky  tried everything I could think of to revive it.... but to no avail.  I found a computer on craigslist and actually called the number (GASP... me making a call without stressing about it...well I was stressed enough over the computer and having to tell Kenn about it that I didn't even hesitate to make the call)  Then after talking to the guy with the computer I called Kenn to tell him the news... which he took SO MUCH better than I thought he would.  so we got a computer I got it set up and most of the things I needed put on it and back to where they were... although not 100% of the information we had, it is better than nothing.

That night I put some jeans in the wash... and the washing machine would not drain.  Yesterday I took it apart to see if there was a clog or something, but no clog was found... so we are going to be getting new washer and dryer from Arron's rental center... so TODAY I need to get up off my butt and clean the front rooms try to kill as many bugs as I can as I go...  I need to finish up figuring the mileage so I can get the taxes started and we can get the tax return on its way... new roof. leveled house, new to us truck and hopefully enough left to start having an exterminator come out and kill these damned roaches!!!!

You Are Invited ...Why I am doing the made to crave bible study

A while back I was on facebook and saw that Proverbs 31 was doing an online Bible study for the book Made To Crave.  I had bought the book a while back on my nook and hadn't gotten around to reading it... So I thought this would be the perfect opportunity to read it, and do a Bible study, as we only have one vehicle right now so I don't get out much.  Plus I have read the author's book Unglued and it spoke volumes to me.

I have many issues and hope that this Bible study helps me to dig deep in the word , and lean more on God than I have in years.  I am ready for a change inside and out.  Things that I pray for coming from this Bible study is that I will long to spend time with God, and my family, and not feel like screaming, and feeling my emotions all the time.  I pray that I can lose some of this weight that has been hanging on for years now... (When my husband and I started dating I wore a size 5... that was 20 years and three kids ago... I now wear a size 16... while I don't quite think I want to be a size 5 again... I would like to be at least a 10 if not an 8.  Ideally I would love to be able to put on my wedding dress in 3 years and wear it when we renew our vows at 20 years... but that was a size 9 wedding dress which was probably actually a size 6.  I want to know God's plan for my life better, to make better choices, have better relationships, and grow (in everything but my body :)  )

trying not to get sick

Didn't do as much as I wanted to get done today, but I did put the dishes up, fold three loads of laundry, threw away stuff with holes in it, put together a couple of tables to help keep track of expenditures for the year for the business... made two of my nagging phone calls (I HATE making calls...)  found out that I don't have to worry about putting a PCP on R's plan because he has traditional medicaid.  called and reschedule appointments for R and T that they have missed the past 3 months now... ugg  going to call the regular dr office to see if they can get T in to see the regular dr so I can get his refills for this month...   (will do that Monday.)I started watching Dexter kind of creepy...  my throat hurts... but I am going to the party tomorrow night... been looking forward to it for too long!!!  need to call and make their dental appointments... but I am really considering changing their dentist... cause I am sick of being told that I ned to hold the twelve year old down and brush his teeth...but I can't remember the name of the dentist I was going to switch them to was.  getting ready for a fight with R's school come the next ARD meeting... I am going to go in with a handwritten page by R and ask them if they can read every single word on that page easily... if not he needs OT, or at least help to improve his hand writing... yes I know that they let him use a computer at school...but he forgets to ask for it, and there are times when getting the lap top out and set up and start using it takes up too much time.  and if he could just pull out a pen or pencil and paper and just write it would be more convenient...

I'm almost finished with my niece's hat, then I need to figure out what to do for my 17 year old nephew's present.  I want to do a cross for mom.finish up the sharks, and mail the packages...did look up the information on how to patch holes in walls... need to price those supplies and get them and get started filling in the small holes in living room dinning room areas.  going to probably have to replace all of the molding or what ever you call the strips of wood at the joints...but that can wait until after I paint :)  well I am going to go do the dishes, try and move A out of the chair that he has been asleep in since before dinner, take a bath and go to bed... oh yeah... set up the coffee pot!!! can't forget that

end of the day

Well I got rid of about 200+lbs of JUNK today :)  happy dance for me.  I did get some more mileage figured out for the tax return (I have done half the year, and it is already over 19,000 miles just business driving.)  fixing to wash the dinner dishes, try and work on my niece's hat that I am making as a late Christmas present... Read some more of Genesis.  set up coffee pot and turn on the auto.  pick Austin up off the floor and put him to bed. take a bath and head to bed myself... (hopefully before 1am tonight )

Got my weekly secretarial duties out of the way ... I get the bill started so that all Kenn has to do in the morning is pull the bill up and enter the amounts.  I even started with putting mileage on the paper so I am that much further ahead of the game next year :).

I need to make the phone calls tomorrow... and if you know me you know how much I HATE that.

my new motto is when I think I can do it later... stop and do it then... that way it gets done...

life as we know it

I forgot to update yesterday on my life since my last cryptic post in August.  I wrote that post after my dad called me (to say goodbye pretty much) letting me know that things weren't looking good and he was tired of being in so much pain.(I was at T.'s meet the teacher... needless to say I wasn't in any condition to really spend the time talking to her as I like to do)my mom called the next day horrified that he had made those calls telling me it wasn't quite as dire as he made it seem.   I talked to him a couple days later and he sounded good.  The first week of September he was back in the hospital... not doing good at all.  So we start making plans to go to say good by that weekend... cause I needed to get my car checked out before driving that far.  At around 4 am on September the 5th my sister called to let me know that dad had passed around 2 am that morning.  So that morning was running around trying to get the car fixed... turns out it was a blown head gasket and not the water pump as we thought.  So there was no way I was going to be able to drive it that far... My little brother and his family drove all night got here at 12am to pick up me and the younger two.  and then we drove back (pretty much got everything put in their car and turned around... )  R and Kenn came when Kenn finished working the next day.the funeral was that Monday.  and Kenn drove back with T and R and I took a bus back the next day with A... and that was an adventure in itself...   The car officially died Tuesday or Wednesday of that week... leaving us with a truck that only seats 3... so going anywhere as a family is right out for the most part.  had to miss both Thanksgiving and Christmas with my family because we just couldn't afford to go (would have been over $300 for bus tickets for me and the younger two both ways)  NOT looking forward to not being able to call him on our birthday this month.  I know he is out of pain and that I will see him again but it doesn't make it hurt any less.


Ok... didn't get to bed last night till after 1am...at 3ish T. got up and decided to start playing with his legos...umm NO... back to bed with you.  At 4:30am A. decided that I needed to wake up and make him coffee NOW (he's 2 1/2)by 4:50 I couldn't deal with the screaming so I got up and started the coffee pot...apparently the screaming woke up T.  he came into my room and softly asked  "Coffee?"I lost it just a little bit... you can wait!!!... then I calmed myself and told him that I would make him a cup after he got dressed... Told him to take R's clothes to him... apparently he threw them on him waking R up... So by 5:30 (the time I am usually fighting them to get them up.) everyone that had to be up and ready to leave by 6:30 were dressed... and ready (for the most part) to go... now instinct said go back to bed when they left... but instead I made the beds... did my sweep (everything off the floors in all rooms (most rooms) swept into one pile and put away)  gotten 4 of the 5 monitors out to get ready for the computer junk pick up today or tomorrow...``cleared (mostly) the counters.  Still need to wipe them down... .got a load in the washer and once that is done I'll do the dishes in the sink (cause my towel that goes under the dish drainer is in the wash)  put the dishes up... and now I am taking a break... read the 1st 4 chapters of Genesis...I decided this morning when listening to air one that I was going to read at least one book of the Bible a week this year (hate to admit it but I have never read the whole thing thru... generally get bored around Numbers...)  all that was done before 8:30 am...going to accomplish a LOT today :)

the time now is 9:12 am...

2014... new year... better me (I hope and pray)

There are SEVERAL things I am going to work on this year and next.   I'll be making my first dr's appointment soon for a check up... Haven't been to the dr since my post op after having my tubes tied... and that was 2 years ago... 2 1/2 actually.

My first goal is to have my house in good enough condition to be able to have my MoCAA friends over for coffee on November 14,2014.  My second goal is to be able to host the holidays on 2015 here.  Got a lot of work to do to get this place up to that... but with baby steps I can do it... breaking things down and getting them done.

This week is already half over, so I think my goals for this week is to start on the tax return, and keep the floors and counters cleared off.  I am also going to start looking around for how to's on holes in walls.

Next week I hope to be able to get the supplies to fix the holes in the living room/ dinning room areas so we can put a base coat of paint to cover up the drawings, and then paint the walls.  As well as finishing the tax return up and keeping up with the floors and counters.  (now the actual paining might happen down the road... but I need to get a move on :)  )

Things we need to get done:

house leveled (double wide trailer)
roof replaced (one big hole and a few leaks)
holes in walls... some pretty big, some small
floor in front of sink in front bathroom (very weak because of a bad pipe leak that was undetected for at least a month)
toilet in front bathroom... need to remove it, snake the pipe under it, get two of the wax seals to put it back down on, turn water back on to it and flush... if that did it then good... get a seat and we're back up to two bathrooms :)... if not then get the plumber out her to look at it.
wall/cabinet where sink is in that bathroom (we had a dog that we put in the bathroom at night and he dug through to the bedroom)
close up hole under bathtub as well.
paint the living room dinning room area
paint the kitchen
new counters in kitchen especially the sink area
flooring
have electrical issues looked at if it is more than just bad breakers
and most important of all to finally rid ourselves of the bugs once and for all!!!

And that is just the stuff I hope to accomplish before this summer.... :)

On a personal note I am going to lose weight, get a better attitude (with possible help of pharmaceuticals there), cooking less food (I am constantly cooking more than we will eat in fear that someone will be hungry if I don't).  I am also trying to at least listen to the bible on my phone daily (although I have missed the last couple of days :/)  and will start helping Kenn with the business once we get the second truck.  (already helping with paperwork)... and I will try to make blog posts at least once a week :)  to update on my progress.