Thursday, January 30, 2014
#Determination
This is the word of the week in the Made to Crave online Bible study this week. What it means to me is that I am going to work through the pain of beginning to exercise and keep going. I am going to continue to make note of everything I put into my mouth... and try to keep everything that comes out pleasant...(not an easy task most days). I am determined to finally read the Bible through... 15 minutes a day I am devoting to this endeavor. Getting the house clean and getting rid of the bugs is another BIG priority that I want to see happen.
Determination=WANT TO+FOLLOW THRU. I want to accomplish something and am willing to follow thru to the end to accomplish that goal. Determination is planning and doing. it is getting off my posterior and accomplishing things that need to be done.
I have a few long term goals that I am working towards.
The first one is to be able to invite some good friends over for coffee on November 14, 2014... In order to be able to feel that I have accomplished that I need to continue with my cleaning everyday, in a few months contact an exterminator to get an estimate on getting rid of our bug problem, do minor repairs and painting in main rooms (living, dinning, kitchen, bath) tackle major repairs such as getting the trailer leveled and getting the roof repaired (and figuring out why the front bathroom won't flush)... maybe just maybe get some new furniture for dinning room and living room. it can be accomplished with in the time frame I have set I believe. And with God's help the finances will be available to allow it to occur.
2nd goal In Two years I want to be able to invite my family here for at least one holiday... This one takes a lot more determination than the first simply because it requires me to become the house keeper I want to be... nothing out of place and everything having a place... this one also requires more $ which is why I have given 2 years for this goal. It requires a continual deep cleaning of the house, new furniture in all the rooms, major repairs to some parts of the house (new counters and cabinets in the kitchen possible rewiring of the house...) but in this too I am determined to see accomplished... oh and having my family here means they will mostly be staying over night. By this time I will have at least 10 nieces and nephews plus my mom, sister and her husband, and both brothers and their wives... the nearest sibling lives 143 miles away. so to say I will have a full house is an understatement :)
and my last goal is for 3 years from now (well a little less than)it is to be able to fit back into my wedding dress for our 20 year anniversary. To accomplish this goal I will have to lose at least 8 dress sizes. how to I plan on doing this... by eating correct portions, including more fruits and vegetables into my diet, making less food for dinner so I don't feel obligated to eat more than I should. Exercise daily. and when my will power fades give it to God and spend time with Him to get past cravings and desires to hoover everything in the fridge.
I think my goals are all attainable... and reasonable to expect that I will be able to accomplish them. No they are not goals I can just sit here on my fanny and expect to have them just happen I have to work for them, I have to be DETERMINED to accomplish them... Determined to work past obstacles that are thrown in my path... things like lack of funds to do a project the way I want it done... Determined to give myself, my family and my friends the best I can, while also giving God the credit and praise for helping me through the obstacles and getting past set backs and getting back on track. Here is to DETERMINATION let's get 'er done!!!! :)
Determination=WANT TO+FOLLOW THRU. I want to accomplish something and am willing to follow thru to the end to accomplish that goal. Determination is planning and doing. it is getting off my posterior and accomplishing things that need to be done.
I have a few long term goals that I am working towards.
The first one is to be able to invite some good friends over for coffee on November 14, 2014... In order to be able to feel that I have accomplished that I need to continue with my cleaning everyday, in a few months contact an exterminator to get an estimate on getting rid of our bug problem, do minor repairs and painting in main rooms (living, dinning, kitchen, bath) tackle major repairs such as getting the trailer leveled and getting the roof repaired (and figuring out why the front bathroom won't flush)... maybe just maybe get some new furniture for dinning room and living room. it can be accomplished with in the time frame I have set I believe. And with God's help the finances will be available to allow it to occur.
2nd goal In Two years I want to be able to invite my family here for at least one holiday... This one takes a lot more determination than the first simply because it requires me to become the house keeper I want to be... nothing out of place and everything having a place... this one also requires more $ which is why I have given 2 years for this goal. It requires a continual deep cleaning of the house, new furniture in all the rooms, major repairs to some parts of the house (new counters and cabinets in the kitchen possible rewiring of the house...) but in this too I am determined to see accomplished... oh and having my family here means they will mostly be staying over night. By this time I will have at least 10 nieces and nephews plus my mom, sister and her husband, and both brothers and their wives... the nearest sibling lives 143 miles away. so to say I will have a full house is an understatement :)
and my last goal is for 3 years from now (well a little less than)it is to be able to fit back into my wedding dress for our 20 year anniversary. To accomplish this goal I will have to lose at least 8 dress sizes. how to I plan on doing this... by eating correct portions, including more fruits and vegetables into my diet, making less food for dinner so I don't feel obligated to eat more than I should. Exercise daily. and when my will power fades give it to God and spend time with Him to get past cravings and desires to hoover everything in the fridge.
I think my goals are all attainable... and reasonable to expect that I will be able to accomplish them. No they are not goals I can just sit here on my fanny and expect to have them just happen I have to work for them, I have to be DETERMINED to accomplish them... Determined to work past obstacles that are thrown in my path... things like lack of funds to do a project the way I want it done... Determined to give myself, my family and my friends the best I can, while also giving God the credit and praise for helping me through the obstacles and getting past set backs and getting back on track. Here is to DETERMINATION let's get 'er done!!!! :)
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
OVERRULED
Ok as some of you know I am doing an online bible study right now.http://proverbs31.org/online-bible-studies/current-study/ This was what I wrote in response to today's assignment.
Excuses I have NOT to get stuff done/
overruled because
- Not enough time... I have plenty of time... instead of spending 4+ hours online I can do my Bible reading (15 minutes), exercise (at least 15 minutes) Big sweep (45 minutes at most sweep everything on the floor in all rooms to one room and clean that pile), Dishes and counters cleared (30 minutes max twice a day) fold clean cloths and put away (15 minutes max) and still have plenty of time to play around.... …
- Kids are driving me nuts.... Go outside (weather permitting) and walk around for 5 or 10 minutes spending time with God, and cooling off... in a few months I can use this time to work on the garden, and as it warms up the kids can start coming out and we'll unwind a bit together perhaps...
- I'm too tired!... I'm too tired because all I do is sit here behind this computer keyboard... if I get up and move around I will gain that energy and sleep better at night.
- Money is so tight buying healthy foods costs SO MUCH!!!!! Ok this one is a toughy, but I can and will make some changes. First stop cooking for an army (always have at least two or threeI servings left over... I do this out of fear that I will hear I'm still hungry. I can find ways to cut costs especially once we get the new freezer fixed by buying meats when on sale and stocking up. And I WILL PLANT A GARDEN THIS YEAR. And I can freeze or can the produce that isn't used fresh from the garden. Looking forward to being able to go pick several tomatoes and a jalapeno and make my fresh salsa from my own garden. Plus I will grow things I know my family will eat (squash, spinach, broccoli and bell peppers) and I can have an herb garden as well... fresh herbs make things taste sooo good :)
- I hurt... well the reason I hurt is I am exercising and using muscles that haven't been used in a very long time... once I start using them regularly they won't protest as much as they are right now... this is day three they still hurt but if I push through the pain and keep going in a few days they won't hurt, but if I let it make me give up then every time I start to try again the pain will start, and it will be a never ending cycle of quitting... I'm an OVERCOMER... not a quitter!!!!
- I just don't want to... don't like too... THERE IS WAY TOO MUCH OF THIS THOUGHT IN MY HOUSE!!!!!As I tell my boys there are lots of things in life that we have to do whether we want to or not. Things that have to be done that we would rather not do, or rather wait for someone else to do.... I have to start giving them a better role model. If I start living like I need to get this done first then I can do what I want to do... if/then... first/ then are big things in my family and I really need to be more consistent using them... my oldest two have Asperger's... and we strongly suspect my husband and I do as well...so routines and things like that are wonderful for us... once we come up with them and use them... the problem there is coming up with them and over coming the excuses.NO EXCUSE IS VALID I HAVE BEEN OVERRULED!!!!!!!
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
good day/ for the most part
Yesterday I started on 4 30day challenges... tricep dips, butt, abs, and wall sitting...
My thighs don't know what the heck is going on and they are protesting anytime I get up from sitting or go to sit...not fun :) but I shall keep going. Today I added 15 minuets of reading the Bible to my daily tasks... read from ch4 to ch 11 in Genesis...I had started reading Genesis a few weeks ago and just thought I would continue where I left off... Been doing really well at keeping up with what I am putting in my mouth, although I want to find an ap that can not only tell me calories, but how I am doing as far as the food pyramid goes... what I need to add (umm fruits and veggies... don't really need an ap for that silly :) ) and what I need to start cutting back on (here again don't really need an ap... bread, pasta, rice... grains!!!!) got a lot of cleaning done this morning (about an hour and a half to two hours worth of cleaning)
We bought a freezer a couple of weeks ago when we got our new washer and dryer... and it stopped working the 2nd or 3rd day... no problem right, take it back and exchange it... right???? WRONG had to call service and get them to come look at it (the man that came to look at it didn't speak English very well, so once he looked at it he called his supervisor and the supervisor told me to call the store and have the manager call his hotline and get it exchanged out..., I called the store the manager was like call back the tech just came out so the hot line would not have any information on it yet... ok... so Kenn went in on Saturday to talk to the manager who said that he had no idea why we were told to contact him because he had no way of getting them to authorize an exchange... yesterday Kenn got a call from service saying someone would be out yesterday morning to look at it... then he got a call that said, no they are going to authorize an exchange, then this morning they call and tell him that cooperate won't authorize the exchange that they have to order a part and fix it...So what did I do... I got irate, and I called (and if you know anything about me it should be that me MAKING a phone call is a BIG thing!!!!) first the customer service who told me that they didn't see any notes that told what was wrong with it, but that someone was scheduled to come out tomorrow to look at it... (I didn't cuss... I did raise the tone of my voice, but not the volume so she gave me the number to the service line (which my blond self dialed wrong TWICE) I did apologize to her letting her know that it wasn't her I was angry with, but the situation.... so I called service... they told me that no he was not scheduled to come out tomorrow but to call and order the part for the freezer tomorrow...I was a little more upset with her than I had been with the other one, but I still did not cuss, and I did apologize again because it is not their fault, they are not the top of the "food chain" at Conn's....but I also assured her that this would be our last purchse with them , and that I would be letting my friends and family (and FACEBOOK) know how unhappy I was and suggest that they not buy from Conns....
on a brighter note I am down to 202 now :) last week I was at 204... :) not a big loss but a loss never the less. God is good,
My thighs don't know what the heck is going on and they are protesting anytime I get up from sitting or go to sit...not fun :) but I shall keep going. Today I added 15 minuets of reading the Bible to my daily tasks... read from ch4 to ch 11 in Genesis...I had started reading Genesis a few weeks ago and just thought I would continue where I left off... Been doing really well at keeping up with what I am putting in my mouth, although I want to find an ap that can not only tell me calories, but how I am doing as far as the food pyramid goes... what I need to add (umm fruits and veggies... don't really need an ap for that silly :) ) and what I need to start cutting back on (here again don't really need an ap... bread, pasta, rice... grains!!!!) got a lot of cleaning done this morning (about an hour and a half to two hours worth of cleaning)
We bought a freezer a couple of weeks ago when we got our new washer and dryer... and it stopped working the 2nd or 3rd day... no problem right, take it back and exchange it... right???? WRONG had to call service and get them to come look at it (the man that came to look at it didn't speak English very well, so once he looked at it he called his supervisor and the supervisor told me to call the store and have the manager call his hotline and get it exchanged out..., I called the store the manager was like call back the tech just came out so the hot line would not have any information on it yet... ok... so Kenn went in on Saturday to talk to the manager who said that he had no idea why we were told to contact him because he had no way of getting them to authorize an exchange... yesterday Kenn got a call from service saying someone would be out yesterday morning to look at it... then he got a call that said, no they are going to authorize an exchange, then this morning they call and tell him that cooperate won't authorize the exchange that they have to order a part and fix it...So what did I do... I got irate, and I called (and if you know anything about me it should be that me MAKING a phone call is a BIG thing!!!!) first the customer service who told me that they didn't see any notes that told what was wrong with it, but that someone was scheduled to come out tomorrow to look at it... (I didn't cuss... I did raise the tone of my voice, but not the volume so she gave me the number to the service line (which my blond self dialed wrong TWICE) I did apologize to her letting her know that it wasn't her I was angry with, but the situation.... so I called service... they told me that no he was not scheduled to come out tomorrow but to call and order the part for the freezer tomorrow...I was a little more upset with her than I had been with the other one, but I still did not cuss, and I did apologize again because it is not their fault, they are not the top of the "food chain" at Conn's....but I also assured her that this would be our last purchse with them , and that I would be letting my friends and family (and FACEBOOK) know how unhappy I was and suggest that they not buy from Conns....
on a brighter note I am down to 202 now :) last week I was at 204... :) not a big loss but a loss never the less. God is good,
Saturday, January 25, 2014
lost it a bit today
I lost it a bit today, I am trying to be calm and not yell... but today was just one of those days... I'll start at the beginning which was actually yesterday.
Yesterday was my birthday... the first birthday I have has that I wasn't able to wish my dad a happy birthday or have him wish me one back...
This is how it started... 5am the phone rang... it was the school districts automated messaging system letting us know that school had been canceled because of the weather... Yes in Texas we get weather days for icy roads. so my day began with Kenn running in and waking the boys up then telling them to go back to bed cause they didn't have school.....could have been worse I know and it was actually kind of funny. Then Kenn went to work and I began the day. I honestly did not get much house work done (as I rarely do when they are all here...) I spent most of the day on Facebook... I made a post on my dad's wall... yes I know he wouldn't have gotten it if he were alive probably as he didn't really use it, but I did it as a remembrance. Mom called about 9:30 to wish me a happy birthday. (we didn't talk about dad). I spent most of the day making gumbo for dinner.
All in all the kids behaved well, and were laughing and having fun... No big deal, until about 4 or 5 when the noise level drove me into hiding... they were laughing ( the kind of laughs that are almost screams) and playing with loud toys...and I just started to go into sensory overload... and that is never a good thing. So I hid in my room for a while, Kenn came home from work and we ate and went to bed...
Today Kenn had things he needed to do this morning and afternoon, so I was left with the kids for several hours again. Sometime this morning A had gotten into my make up which was in my purse. Now I had just bought most of what he got into on the 11th, the lipstick was a couple of weeks older... He took the mascara and took the wand and dug out the lipstick,poured the foundation into a bowl... the eyeshadow he had already messed up a few days before.... I yelled and threw a fit when I saw what he had done... but I know I really have no one to blame for it than myself... (at least I am a cheap skate and didn't spend more than 15 total on all of it...I had an HEB coupon for $4 off make up purchase, so I pretty much replaced whet he had messed up for under $10, plus got some lotion and body spray:) )
It is almost 10:30 pm and I am the only one still awake. They all look so peaceful when they are asleep. I just have to take a deep breath and know that they aren't the enemy... not even close and they deserve me to continue to strive to be better than I was today... One day at a time, one moment at a time.
Yesterday was my birthday... the first birthday I have has that I wasn't able to wish my dad a happy birthday or have him wish me one back...
This is how it started... 5am the phone rang... it was the school districts automated messaging system letting us know that school had been canceled because of the weather... Yes in Texas we get weather days for icy roads. so my day began with Kenn running in and waking the boys up then telling them to go back to bed cause they didn't have school.....could have been worse I know and it was actually kind of funny. Then Kenn went to work and I began the day. I honestly did not get much house work done (as I rarely do when they are all here...) I spent most of the day on Facebook... I made a post on my dad's wall... yes I know he wouldn't have gotten it if he were alive probably as he didn't really use it, but I did it as a remembrance. Mom called about 9:30 to wish me a happy birthday. (we didn't talk about dad). I spent most of the day making gumbo for dinner.
All in all the kids behaved well, and were laughing and having fun... No big deal, until about 4 or 5 when the noise level drove me into hiding... they were laughing ( the kind of laughs that are almost screams) and playing with loud toys...and I just started to go into sensory overload... and that is never a good thing. So I hid in my room for a while, Kenn came home from work and we ate and went to bed...
Today Kenn had things he needed to do this morning and afternoon, so I was left with the kids for several hours again. Sometime this morning A had gotten into my make up which was in my purse. Now I had just bought most of what he got into on the 11th, the lipstick was a couple of weeks older... He took the mascara and took the wand and dug out the lipstick,poured the foundation into a bowl... the eyeshadow he had already messed up a few days before.... I yelled and threw a fit when I saw what he had done... but I know I really have no one to blame for it than myself... (at least I am a cheap skate and didn't spend more than 15 total on all of it...I had an HEB coupon for $4 off make up purchase, so I pretty much replaced whet he had messed up for under $10, plus got some lotion and body spray:) )
It is almost 10:30 pm and I am the only one still awake. They all look so peaceful when they are asleep. I just have to take a deep breath and know that they aren't the enemy... not even close and they deserve me to continue to strive to be better than I was today... One day at a time, one moment at a time.
Thursday, January 23, 2014
A Raging Battle
my current battles are food, and selfishness... I want to do what I want to do when I want to do it . and my children suffer, my marriage suffers... I think the food battle will actually be an easier battle than the selfishness... because I don't see myself as being selfish a lot of the time... but I spend way more time than I should online, and not enough time getting to know my kids... I yell WAY more than I should... although it has been better the last couple of days. Another thing I struggle with is asserting myself enough to get my needs met, instead of just being very passive and letting everyone else go first... stuffing and stuffing until it all explodes and spews might as well say sewage (raw sewage at that!) all over everyone.
My battle plan... eat less... not necessarily not eat things, but making a conscious effort to eat less of it. I think I did a pretty good job of that today. the selfishness, internet, and stuffing...First and foremost turn to God, and pray. Take time for myself when I need it. Spend less time online when everyone is here and awake. And as for the stuffing... I need to start speaking up and letting people know when something they say hits me wrong... I pray that God gives me the tools I need.I also am praying for strength to get though my birthday, and not spend the day crying in bed missing my dad....
My battle plan... eat less... not necessarily not eat things, but making a conscious effort to eat less of it. I think I did a pretty good job of that today. the selfishness, internet, and stuffing...First and foremost turn to God, and pray. Take time for myself when I need it. Spend less time online when everyone is here and awake. And as for the stuffing... I need to start speaking up and letting people know when something they say hits me wrong... I pray that God gives me the tools I need.I also am praying for strength to get though my birthday, and not spend the day crying in bed missing my dad....
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
sick kids :(
T stayed home from school today with a scratchy throat... and A's nose is running both barrels... got to love mountain cedar.
Ugg I've been mostly good today with my eating. I think tomorrow I am going to start writing down everything that goes in my mouth... how much and what time... I'm going to start making myself be more accountable...
Right now I am sitting her and I really want to eat and eat and eat... I want food... I need God :)...so I am praying that this hungry feeling be taken away. to give me the strength not to go hoover everything in the fridge :)
Well I need to call Conn's again tomorrow about the repair guy...
tired but not really sleepy... or is it sleepy and not really tired?I am so not looking forward to Friday... all I want to do right now is curl up in a ball and just let the day pass me by. I'm already recieving happy birthday messages on Facebook... I miss my dad so very much.
Did pretty good about yelling today... that was until dinner time when I am in the kitchen fixing plates, and OD starts growling... the kids are all Moming... so I yell at the dog to shut up...
Ugg I've been mostly good today with my eating. I think tomorrow I am going to start writing down everything that goes in my mouth... how much and what time... I'm going to start making myself be more accountable...
Right now I am sitting her and I really want to eat and eat and eat... I want food... I need God :)...so I am praying that this hungry feeling be taken away. to give me the strength not to go hoover everything in the fridge :)
Well I need to call Conn's again tomorrow about the repair guy...
tired but not really sleepy... or is it sleepy and not really tired?I am so not looking forward to Friday... all I want to do right now is curl up in a ball and just let the day pass me by. I'm already recieving happy birthday messages on Facebook... I miss my dad so very much.
Did pretty good about yelling today... that was until dinner time when I am in the kitchen fixing plates, and OD starts growling... the kids are all Moming... so I yell at the dog to shut up...
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